yikes! i hope all of this health trouble clears up for you soon. it sounds horrible to deal with

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aww man. that damn sickness better go away soon or i'm gonna kick it's ass

i miss talking to you too!
things are pretty good. i'm in college now and loving it. not the work but the rest of it is great. other than the sickness, how are things?

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I love you, girlie!

Hope you get better soon! I am definitely keeping you in my thoughts & prayers, yo.

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_{I love you too I am still having writer's block on your letter I will send it soon. Don't worry, I'm not going to send you something every time I write you something and you don't need/have (whatever lol) to send me anything, the last letter and this one is special because it was little things that had some sort of meaning and that I had nothing else to spend my money on and I thought of you at the time. Just having you as my friend means more than any gift you could give me Aww you're so sweet, thank you it's getting a little bit better.}

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Jenny-dear, you don't EVER have to get me anything. I don't expect that from you. I feel the same in that having you as a friend is the best gift in the world!

Hopefully soon I can actually send you something back! I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE the postcards! I have them up in my room & they make me smile every day.



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<sub>Sorry for typos my headache came back but I tried my best for now.

It keeps coming back off/on A LOT but right now it's okay. It's just chest/heart/side pains, and tingly painful feelings that shoot up and down my arms or legs along to my feet and a huge headache and dizziness.

Awesome about college! I still need to go to it and get my own place but then my baby Bam would have no one. I'm kind of working on it but it's just then if I do get my own place I wouldn't have anyone to talk to at all and not sure about internet.

Bam is always getting yelled at by my dad and now my dad plays favorites with the dogs and other things that makes Bam upset. >.< Things have been depressing, lonely and stressful for me kind of but other than that pretty good. My dad has been throwing a lot of tantrums/screaming cusswords/slamming doors/bitching/whining/ WAY MORE than he used to in the past!! He literally wakes up in a horrible mood, causes problems, goes to work comes back home the same way and it seems like it's almost everyday.

My aunt/uncle drama that puts my mom in the middle and my dad involves himself in this has increased 100 times more than usual, stupid obsessive suicidal thoughts keep popping up and not leaving me alone(not that bad like they were in the past) and my mom keeps bringing up death comments (which has been going on for months now) including after dinner tonight "When i'm dead and gone will you remember my fried chicken?" I seriously almost broke a plate when she said that when I was putting it in the sink and watching all these shows about it (NCIS, Bones, Criminal Minds, Cold Case, Dateline, all the CSI series, DR. G medical show or whatever channel that's on, and shows that are about real cases)(so it doesn't really help me since I'M ALWAYS in here and don't have my own room. It's all she watches now that and depressing shows/movies.


My 5 dogs keep attacking each other over 7 times a day. When I try to talk my voice is now really low since I barely talk to anyone in person and my voices cracks, my mom or dad makes me repeat what I just said when they don't hear me and my voice cracks and also my lisp is worse now also I now stutter sometimes. Oh most of the time my family ignores me when I say something or say "huh?" "what was that?" or "I thought I heard a voice?" :did you hear something" or I get an attitude from my mom when I ask her something. I keep having nightmares when I try to sleep and i'm also losing some of my hair from damn psoriasis, it's also covered my whole elbows now but i'm trying to doctor it as much as possible. Also my sister wakes up at 5a.m for school when it starts at 7:20a.m. because she has to take TWO HOURS PUTTING ON MAKEUP! I have a big mirror on my dresser and the light is right over my bed so I wake up instantly when I try not to. My mom also keeps calling me "Robin" by accident which is my aunt's name and she keeps calling her everyday and ARGUES with her or gets upset/angry and then is like "i'm done with her" and usually calls her back again pretending it never happened and my mom argues with me now over stupid little things. So yeah >.< it's annoying


I hope everything is going good for you! Tell me what's new or how's your relationship going, what classes do you have or anything. I really miss you a lot. LOL sorry for typing so much, that's pretty much why I haven't made art, plus art block.

I'm much better/happier now since the people (you and a few others) I should of spent time with in the past instead of wasting my time on people who never appreciated anything(be there for them when they needed someone, try to do stupid little things to make them happy, that bullshit). I guess if it wasn't for those people I would of never realized who was really there for me and who wasn't. Plus, I have someone I really cared about a year ago or so that came back to me and</sub>

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holy cow! you have a lot going on.
And definitely it's worth ranting and venting about.
It sounds like your problems with family have gotten worse overall, i hope you get to move out soon. where do you want to go to college? that would guarentee some new social experiences and get you the hell out of there. It would be really hard to leave your dogs behind though. But it would be good for you.
You need to get away from death! especially those death comments your mother's making. i hate it when parents do that, it's so discouraging.

I'm so glad you're happier now though, who's the one person that came back to you? it's exciting!

yes things are good for me. enjoying school but not the homework. loving the people i'm meeting and the good times i have. Not much is new, thinking of getting a new piercing but i had a not so happy discussion about it with my mom and she said if i get anymore she'll take my computer away which is completely unreasonable since i absolutely love them. she says i'm just trying to spite her and disrespect her when infact she is the one who is not respecting the way i choose to be. warblgarbl hhkuyhjlvfrustrating. and my relationship is good, infact much better than it was when we talked last i believe.

my classes are great. i have drawing 1, life drawing 1, intro to print media, english comp, art history and studio forum. i hate studio forum but love the first three so far.

i miss you so very much! i miss talking to you. i'll try to get on aim more. lol i like reading it too so it's okay. i'd love to see more art soon when you can and feel upto it. yor art is soo very pretty

well i'll talk to you soon lovey

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